_Faith like Esther.
Have you ever wanted to control a situation? Do you ever wonder why God didn't make something happen? I totally was at this place in the last 24 hours. My mind was confused and my heart hurt.
I prayed for God to answer a prayer...quickly. You see, we are in the middle of trying to sell my Dad's home so that he can move closer to us. We have already found him the perfect apartment where he no longer has to worry about fixing a home or maintaining a lawn.
So we took a leap of faith and signed a lease for the apartment before even listing the house on the market. I felt that since God has gotten us this far, there is no way that he would not provide the right buyer for this home.
And then the process of selling a home hits after you have already been exhausted with preparing the home for sale. Conversations, calls, showings, feedback, and waiting.
And then we received 2 offers. Neither were an immediate "Yes! knock your socks off" kind of deals. I struggled. Why God? Don't you see how hard we have worked to make it this far? Why couldn't you have just given us what we needed... at least the minimum to help my Dad get out of debt for the first time in his life. I don't often feel these types feelings...but I did today.
So this morning, God answered our cries out to him. I opened my Bible and started where I left off yesterday and read the passage in the photo. Isaiah 55:8-9. "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."
OK God, so what are your thoughts on this situation? I needed an answer- and quick!
A few hours later, God provided his answer. He used my Dad's story to impact others. The generosity and kindness that has been shown to my Dad through people involved brought me to tears several times today. Praise be to God! My Dad will be out of debt! He will be moving into his new apartment. We will be having actual conversations that are joyful and fun without the tension of disagreements and quarrels regarding the house.
You see friends, if God had done it the way that I thought it should have been done- it would not have provided the opportunity for others to hear our story. Had he listened to me, my Dad would not have felt the love from others pouring into him.
Some of you may remember that Hadleigh is obsessed with the C.S. Lewis story of The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. Once we get past Mr. Tumnus and Lucy's tea party she is most excited to see the battle at the end. For her being a 3 year old princess-loving little girl; this was the last thing I expected her to be drawn to. It is the battle between the white witch and her dominion of evil against Aslan and his supreme authority and the people/creatures he loves. With boldness right before the battle begins, they yell "For Narnia! For Edmund!". Now Edmund is the youngest sibling who betrayed his own brother, sisters (and ultimately Aslan's life) for some chocolates. Oh friends, this story is so beautiful and intentionally mirrors Jesus' love for us.
When I was preparing dinner last night, this part of the movie was on and I heard these words- "For Narnia! For Edmund!" And I couldn't help but think that in my story, right now- God said "For Andrea! For her Dad!" (I have been keeping his name hidden for his privacy). Oh how God fights for us friends. We have all betrayed him just like Edmund. But to him, he chooses to have his entire kingdom fight for us. We are that valued to him. He does it for each one of us- but he would also do it if it were for ONLY just one of us. He also uses others, in this world, to help fight our battles. I could tell you of all of the beautiful humans that God has asked to fight my Dad's battles. How amazing. He doesn't just do it himself. He empower each one of us to participate in our own stories but also for others. He is on a mission to restore this world. One day it will be as he created. There will be more battles and a much larger war to come, but how we can delight in knowing he is fighting our battles- we just have to let him and stop trying to control everything.
God shows us that we can trust him. But it truly is in his timing AND in his way. So I am going to reference something that I heard from a sermon a while back.
God is always at work, even when it seems that he is silent. And he is never late.
He doesn’t always give us what we want, but he does give us what we need.
I am praying that you get your answers to your prayers friends- but more importantly, I am praying that you have enough patience, faith, perseverance and trust to know that God does hear you and that he will answer when the time is right and in the way that glorifies his plan and purpose for you.
And P.S. We celebrate 6 months of sobriety with my Dad in 3 days! God is certainly at work.
_Faith like Esther